Bright's thoughts

This is an old draft. I apparently didn't hit post. So this is from last Thursday. I love to see the temple, I'm going there someday.... The days I go to the temple I notice I need extra help to make it through the day. Seriously, those days are almost painful. So sad to say outloud. I find I am easily frustrated and on edge. I snap at the kids so quick. By the time I get out the door I am saying a prayer of thanksgiving and seeking forgiveness for my short fuse. Often, I feel as if I'm not worthy to be going to the Lord's house. I know it is the advesary working on me. Once I walk in those doors all those feelings melt away and I soften immediately. Tonight I am lucky enough to actually be going with Scott. Usually we don't go together, we alternate. I am anxious for this visit. I love to See the Temple, I'll go inside someday.....

I woke up early this morning. I woke from a very bizarre dream. It was the kind that you hope never happens, but COULD. In my dream we had recieved a bunch of calls from people I didn't know. It was as if we were just looking at the caller ID and not picking up. There was a knock at the door, we had JUST sat down to eat dinner. A man was at the door I didn't recognize at all. Scott gave him a huge hug and began talking to him as if they were best friends. I guess they were from years ago. Scott had talked to him earlier and not told me that we were letting his man's parents stay with us. I looked around and thought "WHAT was he thinking?!". So the man walks out and gets his Dad. He brings his dad in, HE's BLIND!!!!!!! Then comes the mom, in a motorized scooter!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wake up! (Lindsey is Rolling thinking this is so funny!) So there I lay this morning (5:45) thinking about the crazy dream and HOW was I going to care for these people as the ...

Look what pulled up in front of my house yesterday!   The back part is what was "mine". That was just SHY of NINE THOUSAND POUNDS of wheat!   I wish I had gotten a picture of it in my driveway to get a better idea of the enormity ot this. I have been stressed over this for over a month. I collected over $2000 dollars and sent it off to a guy I know in Centerville the end of March. I had some people make comments like "How well do you know this guy?" and "This is a lot of money ($120) I don't like handing it over to someone I don't know." Delivery of the wheat was tricky. I had thought "My trailor can haul 7500lbs, it can handle 6000". Scott set me straight, the max weight minus the trailor's weight really is 6000lbs which made Scott FREAK out over. All in all it turned out fine, since the oder grew by another ton. I recieved payment for 2000 more pounds the day after I sent off the first 6000. SIGH!!! The stress began to ris...

It is really funny how the kids have seemed to have grown a bit since they have gotten their own money. Usually they are wanting to just buy candy. A few weeks ago Lindsey was saving for a day camp. We told her she would have to pay for $25 of the $75. When she got her overdue allowance she looked at her money and decided the day camp wasn't worth it to her. We were actually relieved as the $50 from us could be put into a whole family outing. She agreed that was better. Today we went to pick out a birthday gift for a friend of Lindsey's and all the kids took their money. Journey and Katie had been eyeing these glitter balls. Quite cool things, but $8! I didn't think they were worth it. I have decided to give guidance but not tell them that they can't buy something. It is theirs and if they "waste" it, then they learn. Dejah knew what she wanted she wanted to make a special dessert for the family. I thought it was really cool she wanted to spend her...

  So, I think I will wear sunscreen and take Vit D supplements. OWIE!

So, I have come to a depressing realization. I am gaining inches! I have been working out for 3wks now. Hard workouts! Lots of core work and lunges and squats. Mass ab work and I'm GAINING inches! I don't get it. I have however noticed my biceps are more defined and my quads are harder. Could this be the cause of inches? I mean, maybe the gain before the loss? My body fat percentage has dropped 2%, but I have gained weight and inches. It is rather depressing in a way. The good news is I am seeing a difference in my muscles. I have said in the past that I just wanted to be tone and fit. Maybe I'm getting my wish. I know, I know three weeks is not that much time. I'm working out 4-5 times a week and it feels AWESOME! I just hope I start to lose soon.

You try to teach your children to NOT play with knives then your husband so lovingly says "let's carve soap for Family Home Evening". What do you say? "Uh, you know we have 5 kids 11 and under?" He said it infront of them....oh boy! EVERYONE is excited but mommy.   The crew...everyone got a bar of Ivory soap and a knife.     I helped Bryan, more like I did it, then he broke the snowman to bits with a butter knife. &nbsp We had a Turtle (scott), a Dog head (mom), Fish (Lindsey), Car (Dejah), Dice (Katie), Dice and a mailbox (Journey) and a Snowman (Bryan with the help of Mom). Oh and no worries not a single drop pf blood was split. And we had a food fight afterwards even.... All sorts of "no nos" in a night.

  So I have this gift, I can just about fall asleep at the drop of the hat. You hear about those people who are asleep as soon as their head hits their pillow. Well that is usually me. I also have a curse, I am easily woken up, especially in the morning hours. Quite often I can fall back asleep easily, but then I am woken up again. This morning I woke up before my alarm (set for 6:40) and fell back to sleep and woke a minute before the alarm. I decided this morning I would use "pretty boy" the rooster as a snooze button. MISTAKE!!!!!!!!!! So I consciencely made myself listen for him. I would doze and wake when I heard him. See, where my gift and curse play in here? Well, I decided to time the thing.... He was crowing every stinkin minute! He would crow and I would look up... 6:46...6:47...6:48...6:48...UH OH! TWICE in a minute? He starts this at 5-5:20 AM EVERY DAY! So if I'm not making myself listen for him, I get some actual sleep. After this morning I a...

  Cake for dinner? Meatloaf cake, with mashed potato frosting. In Journey's words "this isn't frosting" with a very funny look! ROFL!   Hotdogs for dessert? Bananas with PB and strawberry syrup in a hotdog bun. YUM!   The meatloaf inside. Yes it has carrots in it.